zaman ....

engar akharesh ham adam delesh mikhad be zaboone khodesh harf bezane .... skahte bekhay hessato be ye zaboone dige begi ... emruz hamash vaght dir migzasht har kar kardam 4:30 beshe ke az sherkat biam biroon nashod ... akharesh ham 2 amadam biroon didam dige nemitoonam akhe hich kas nabood ... khodemoonim adam vase kar kardan vaghe'an ehtiaj be vojoode raees dare ha !
be har haal bayad kam kam aadat konam ....

shajarian !

vaghti ye joorayee hasti .... ye kam ghati ... ye kam del gerefte .... nemidoonam kholase sare haal nissi dige ! ... kheili keif dare yeki biad o behet pishnahad bede ke barat ahange shajarian bezare va to begi ke mikhay in ahang o goosh bedi

Baz mi amad o rokhsare bar afrookhte bood
ta koja baz del e ghamzade e sookhte bood .....

khodaya ... hasti ? merci ....

at work

it's a bit boring ... but it's good for me to be busy ... shame on me ! i just wanna be busy ! nothing more ! hey where am i .... i'm waiting always be waiting ! for a big nothing !

GOD

it's been a long time .... it's been a life .... i will never forgive myself ..... hey god do you hear me ? are you still there ? hey do you really live there ? or it's a big lie ? hey i need you ...... show me ... show me that you are alive .... you are big .... and you can do more than me .....

don't know

i really don't know what am i going to write down here ..... i'm just creating it not by my mind by a force not known from where ... maybe because of my soul which loves writing ... maybe to have a diary which i've never had ... it will grow up by itself and me as a mother will be a witness ....
i will write more ....