خيلي وقته !

آره ! خوب هم کار داشتم هم حال نداشتم ! مسخره است ها وقتي فکر مي کني الان ديگه اوضاع رديفه باز هم خودتو درگير يه چيزي مي کني ! آخرش هم من عاقل نمي شم ! مي دونم ! الان هنوز سر کارم آهنگ هاي قشنگ گوش مي دم و کمي هم کار مي کنم .... خوبه ... اما نمي دونم چي داره ميشه ! يه جورايي حسم مي گه دارم کجکي مي رم ! خدايا من که گيجم لطفن تو بپا !!!!!

خيلي وقته !

نخ !

امروز هيچي کلاس نرفتم !!!! خيلي خوبه وقتي نميري ديگه هيچ کدوم رو نري ! به هر حال نمي دونم واقعا" اينکه خوش باشي به خودت مربوطه فقط ؟ واقعا" بقيه چقدر موثرن ؟ انگار دنيا پر نخ ! همه چي به همه چي وصله !آدم از همه طرف کشيده مي شه ! نه که بد باشه ها اصلن خودت هم به اين نخ ها بندي اگه نباشن مي افتي ! ولي خوب نتيجه اش ميشه اينکه ................ به هر حال همينه بابا سخت نگير !

يه روز جديد

سلام! چه خبرا ! امروز مي تونه جالب باشه ! يعني من مي خوام که باشه ! شايد هيچ دليلي هم نداره اما از اين اوضاع خسته شدم ! مي خوام بخندم ! بعدا" باز هم مي نويسم !

emruz ham class dashtam o ham bayad miraftam sare kaar ... galoom ham ke dard mikone .... kholase ghooze bala ghooz .... vali khob oza khoob bood ba inke akharaye class e yeki az ostada ro kheili be zoor tahamol kardam tasmim gereftam daneshjooye khubi basham o sare class am bemoonam... akhe zeshte jelo bache haaye 2 saal koochiktar 2 dar bazi dar aram !
in term ham ajab termi shode .... man hame kaar daram mikonam .... ham mikham beram oon vara ! ham ye joorayee delam mikhad inja basham ! ... vaghe'an hich fekr kardin chera mamlekate ma bayad ye joori bashe ke hame bekhan beran ! aslan ki gharare bemoone dige .... kholase dige man ke balad nistam az entekhabat e america o natayeje jadid e pishbini ha benevisam haminjoori harfaye khodamo migam ... khoob bashin ... :)

Concert

hey ! I love a lovely night !!! with hearing lots of beautiful songs .... Farhad Farkhreddini and Alireza Ghorbani .. i like both of them and i'm waiting for tomorrow night to see them ... iranian music always bring peace to me , i hope it would do it again ...

تنهايي

اين هم فارسي اين قدر همه بهم گفتن که فارسي بنويسم که تسليم شدم

بد جوريم حالم افتضاحه نميدونم حتا حال نوشتن ندارم دارم خودم رو مجبور مي کنم که فقط يه چي بگم

نمي دونم خدا چي فکر کرد که ما ها رو اينجوري آ فريد چرا ما نبايد بتونيم تنهايي رو تحمل کنيم چرا هميشه نياز منديم به يکي .... که فقط باشه ...... که " درک" کنه !!!!! بابا اصلن اگه هيچ کس درکمون نکنه هيچ کس نفهمه چي مي گيم چي مي شه ؟؟؟؟؟

مي خوام ياد بگيرم به کسي نياز نداشته باشم !!!!!! کمکم کن !!!!! عجب تناقضي

i never know the title !

yep ! when you are empty you must say I AM EMPTY !!!!!!!!!!!!1 like the previous post ! also now i'm still empty but i'm telling it by words !
hey do you drink ? no thanks i don't ! .... what is it in your point of view ?

Hey ... i wanna know what's the aim ... to write or to be read ? ... i don't know why am i writing here instead of in my little notebook ... oh my dear notebook ... i've really missed you .... you know not much has passed since those time ... at then my biggest dream was to become a writer ... a poet ... oh such a big dream .... now i think it wouldn't worth a paper ! so i try this keyboard instead mf my pencil ... my beloved friend of those days ! .... no the point is to write not to be read .... i'm sure .....

New Template !

this is the best black !!!! i love it ... it never ends .... hey God i'm sure you are black ..... deep and deep ... hey i love writing here ! specially because no one knows about it to criticize me ! i will write more and more .. i'm busy these days ...working and thinking .... thinking about something very very important !

Class ...

marizi ham bad dardie ! be khosoos vaghti aslan vaght nadari ! .... emruz ham class naraftam ! daram aadat mikonam ke dige class ha ro naram :D .... az kar kardan bishtar az danesh gah khosham miad albate midunam faghat be khatere jadid boodaneshe ha ! chon har chi ro ke behesh aadat mikoni ba'd mishini o migi : hey kash on ghadima bood ke miraftim daneshgah o hey classa ro dodar mikardim .... vaghe'an bahar ham ajibe ha ... hamash hasrat mikhore .... kheili maskharast vaghe'an balad nistim too al'an zendegi konim ... kashki khatere ha nabood .... na ?

doost !

vaghe'an hich fekr kardin age doostatoon naboodan chi mishod nemidoonam .... man ke mimordam !
adam ha ba baghie ma'ni peida mikonan yani ye joorayee kamel mishan ........... gahi vaghti nemidooni aslan hassi ya nissi ! yeki miad o ba boodanesh behet mige ke hassi ! ... yani faghat chon oon hast va to barash ma'ni dari pas vojood dari !
doos daram begam delam vasatoon tang shode .... doostayee ke nemibinameshun ... har kodoom ye tarafe donya .... khodaya in che hekmatie akhe .... mikhametun .... ama midunam chon delam baratun tang mishe hatman hassin !

va mohem ine .....

cheers to all my dear friends .... all around the world

zaman ....

engar akharesh ham adam delesh mikhad be zaboone khodesh harf bezane .... skahte bekhay hessato be ye zaboone dige begi ... emruz hamash vaght dir migzasht har kar kardam 4:30 beshe ke az sherkat biam biroon nashod ... akharesh ham 2 amadam biroon didam dige nemitoonam akhe hich kas nabood ... khodemoonim adam vase kar kardan vaghe'an ehtiaj be vojoode raees dare ha !
be har haal bayad kam kam aadat konam ....

shajarian !

vaghti ye joorayee hasti .... ye kam ghati ... ye kam del gerefte .... nemidoonam kholase sare haal nissi dige ! ... kheili keif dare yeki biad o behet pishnahad bede ke barat ahange shajarian bezare va to begi ke mikhay in ahang o goosh bedi

Baz mi amad o rokhsare bar afrookhte bood
ta koja baz del e ghamzade e sookhte bood .....

khodaya ... hasti ? merci ....

at work

it's a bit boring ... but it's good for me to be busy ... shame on me ! i just wanna be busy ! nothing more ! hey where am i .... i'm waiting always be waiting ! for a big nothing !

GOD

it's been a long time .... it's been a life .... i will never forgive myself ..... hey god do you hear me ? are you still there ? hey do you really live there ? or it's a big lie ? hey i need you ...... show me ... show me that you are alive .... you are big .... and you can do more than me .....

don't know

i really don't know what am i going to write down here ..... i'm just creating it not by my mind by a force not known from where ... maybe because of my soul which loves writing ... maybe to have a diary which i've never had ... it will grow up by itself and me as a mother will be a witness ....
i will write more ....